They Call Me C

This first entry was written a year ago and was posted on my aboutme page on the same day. It talks about how I view myself without the apprehension of other people's judgment and perception of me.

I'd like to post it here too since this will be my official blog site, an avenue of my deepest thoughts, suppressed angst, intense feeling, eccentric euphoria and confusion wrapped in one, so readers must somehow understand my root by simply reading this. However, I dont expect all readers to like my posts nor like me as an author. If you like it cool; if you dont it's still ok. You have to understand that this blog is not intended to please people. This is for myself, to keep Cherry Mijares sane and human.

This might not be the entirety of my schizophrenic, bipolar me but Im sure, this is something real and cannot be contest by others especially when these others are not the people I care about.

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Before anything else, I would just like to tell you that I have a very low tolerance for stupid people. So might as well read carefully and think very well before whatever, the statements that comes next to this:

Hello there! Im not perfect :) 

I always mean what I say but I sometimes don't say what I mean. We all deserve to know the truth. But some truths are meant to be kept for a while. It's for your own good sometimes.

Whether you like it or not, Im a brutally honest, competitive bitch -- I know what I want and I do whatever that is best and right for me. I dont live my life pleasing others. I live it responsibly by doing what I think is right. But, nuh-uh, I don't mess up with people unless they mess me up first. I only act upon people based on what they deserve. 

As much as I want to preserve my privacy, most people are plain nosy & jealous that's why I only have few people in my life I call friends. They are the only ones whose judgment matters and whose actions can hurt me. The only ones who are entitled and has the privilege to know the entirety of my being. When it comes to them, no holds barred! You can be that person if you're worth it. 

It's not atheism, im a deist. I believe in the presence of a higher being. No bible, no religion. If you can't respect it, just don't call me stupid or evil for not sharing the same belief with you. Im not gonna change that principle anyway. 

I can't live life without freedom. It's the only thing that keeps people going. Yes! It can't buy love and happiness. But it can take you near your loved one, it can buy you food, etc. Thus, will make you happy. Just be careful, this freedom entails responsibility. 

&& the rest of me are as capricious, as flippant, as random, as vain & as real as this fake poser of myself! -- C