Last April 12, 2011 I posted something peculiar for the eyes of the many in Facebook. A picture of me topless, exposing my burned skin at the back edited in black and white with a quotation "man was created before woman. But then you always make a rough draft before the final masterpiece". No tits, no genitalia. Purely skin. It was my first "nude play". I was since then a self proclaimed nude play artist, inspired by a friend VFE's passion for the same thing.
I dont know how the inspiration burned and sparked all over my capricious mind. It just happen that when I first did that, I felt something free within me. A release of angst and inhibitions, the thrill of the different and perhaps, the expression of the unconscious. I am myself when Im naked; no worries, no expectations, just plain and simple.
Whenever I do nude play, I have the role of a model, a photographer, a picture editor.. How's that? I am everything. The role thrills me more to be an artist. My body, my art.
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Currently, last March 2012, I was elected as President of my school's Student Government.
As President, I gained power equally as I have gained responsibility.
I have to play the role of a President. To be someone decent, a good image, an untarnished reputation, a composed righteous one.. for a role model.
Well, I can keep up with that expectations at first glance. But I never knew that to be President is synonymous to diminished privilege to be free. And I have always valued my freedom over any other things. That is one thing I cant live without. Something worth anything to have.
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I am now both a self proclaimed nude play artist and a President. A schizophrenic woman who plays different kinds of role at a given time. I am different when Im an artist, and different when Im the President. But some people tend to over generalize things and react badly on someone else's shoes without even bothering to put herself on it. At least, for once, why cant people see the world as I see it?
Right now, I am severely criticized as President because of my nude play pictures.
Frankly, I dont give a damn about anyone's opinion. These comments are meaningless because those who judge me know me, but they dont know ABOUT me. I know who I am and I am secured of my self. My friends believe me and my family loves me for who I am and what I have become. They are proud of me despite my defect and shortcomings. Other than those persons, hearsays about me dont really matter. Unsolicited advice, if you dont know the entirety of me, dont act as if your comments matter.. You are just wasting your right to speak. You are sounding jealous and irrelevant and funny. Save yourself from my mental killing!
But I am just hurt, badly hurt, that my art of being myself, the art of expressing my freedom is caged into someone else's pathetic close minded perception. I cannot breathe, I am suffocated. My freedom to be honest about myself is choked. I want to be free.
But I am just hurt, badly hurt, that my art of being myself, the art of expressing my freedom is caged into someone else's pathetic close minded perception. I cannot breathe, I am suffocated. My freedom to be honest about myself is choked. I want to be free.
No, I cannot think of any other ways to express my being other than nude play. If that seem to bother you, dont look at me. Dont mind me. As I have not been interested about anyone, as well. I know what I am doing and I will stand for myself. Again, save yourself from too much distress about my happiness.
I clearly understand that when I chose to do the act, I can gather different kinds of opinions and each one of that I respect and will respect. But you have to understand that I do things for myself, not to please anyone. If you like me, thank you. If you dont, it's still ok. I cannot live on anyone's expectation because I have the tendency to rebel on it. My God gave me free will to choose, and so are you. It all depends on us how we are going to use it.
However, you cannot question my values as a person just because of my actions, especially when you dont know my root of doing it.. especially when you cant feel what I have felt while doing it. Posing my bare back on Facebook does not define my entirety. IT DOES NOT AFFECT YOUR LIVES. IT DOES NOT DEFUNCT MY CAPABILITIES AS PRESIDENT. AND HONESTLY, YOU SHOULD NOT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT.
Stop lambasting my values!! Stop caging my freedom into your mind!! Stop trying to erase my existence!! You are not perfect as well!
I cannot change who I am for you.. I am proud of what I have become. I will continually do what I want. We just need to adjust on everybody so we could co-live. But if you cannot stand on my presence, leave. You are not happy anymore. Happiness and freedom is more than any societal position and glory.
On my part, I am a President and a Nude Player. Believe me, I know how to portray the roles. You just have to see me one role at a time. What I have done in the past made me this way. I am proud of it because I have learned on it!
I might just suppress the urge of a nude player as of the moment, but like Douglas McArthur, my nudeplay SHALL RETURN! -- C
I clearly understand that when I chose to do the act, I can gather different kinds of opinions and each one of that I respect and will respect. But you have to understand that I do things for myself, not to please anyone. If you like me, thank you. If you dont, it's still ok. I cannot live on anyone's expectation because I have the tendency to rebel on it. My God gave me free will to choose, and so are you. It all depends on us how we are going to use it.
However, you cannot question my values as a person just because of my actions, especially when you dont know my root of doing it.. especially when you cant feel what I have felt while doing it. Posing my bare back on Facebook does not define my entirety. IT DOES NOT AFFECT YOUR LIVES. IT DOES NOT DEFUNCT MY CAPABILITIES AS PRESIDENT. AND HONESTLY, YOU SHOULD NOT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT.
Stop lambasting my values!! Stop caging my freedom into your mind!! Stop trying to erase my existence!! You are not perfect as well!
I cannot change who I am for you.. I am proud of what I have become. I will continually do what I want. We just need to adjust on everybody so we could co-live. But if you cannot stand on my presence, leave. You are not happy anymore. Happiness and freedom is more than any societal position and glory.
On my part, I am a President and a Nude Player. Believe me, I know how to portray the roles. You just have to see me one role at a time. What I have done in the past made me this way. I am proud of it because I have learned on it!
I might just suppress the urge of a nude player as of the moment, but like Douglas McArthur, my nudeplay SHALL RETURN! -- C
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