where is the love?

for an average man, things or events that last six months and beyond they consider to love it. for women however, when it lasts for four months and more they have loved the thing.
i am a woman. one ordinary sunday after my routine jogging i was waiting for sun to rise. i counted the days and weeks until i reached months of counting since the first day i landed in where i am now. i realize it was almost four months since i am here. the question is, i am in love? just when i ponder, to whom? i cant seem to think of a name. or should i rephrase my question, why am i here?

it was an ultimate choice to choose to separate from comfort and live independently after college. it was the bravest decision i have ever made as far i could recall. what pushes me to this was at that time, i think, i wasnt anymore happy with where i was. i have always been reminding myself with the saying "stay if youre happy, leave when you are not". so i did.

now, i am stuck in this busy place where people seem to be different from where i left. am i really in love? upon sitting here in this concrete i know the only thing i love about this place is their sun rise which i believe is the second most beautiful thing next to a woman giving birth. but come to think of this, the sun rise everywhere. then, why am i here? -- C

Soul Searching

"When you start finding happiness, you will find out that looking for wisdom is the ultimate search."

When I left home three months ago to find peace and serenity from within I was too convinced that I was looking for perfect happiness.

In the pursuit of perfect happiness, I have met few several new people who gave me new definitions and ways how to feel it.

The moments were quite infatuating but not overwhelming that even on spotlight I have come to realize that to find your own happiness you have first to keep your feet on the ground.

There will be many opportunities that will be knocking at your door and telling you she is happiness. She will allure you with temporary joys and gladness because you are lonely. You can always open your door but at the end of the day, choose wisely who among them to enter beyond that door of yours.

People come and go. When they pass by, they will always show you many hows and whats to know and find your happiness. But it is your own eyes who will see the right light that will not blind your life. Do not let them define nor depend on them your happiness. Claim it in your own right. So when the time comes that those people have to leave, you still have happiness that won't.

P.S.
Your self is just there all along
Never lose it in the process of finding it
-- C